284. The Loneliness Nobody Warned Me About (in Leadership)
Nobody told you it would feel like this. You prepared for the hard decisions, the difficult conversations, the long hours. You read the books, completed the training, built the skills. You knew leadership would be challenging. What nobody told you was how lonely it would be. In the first episode of The Weight of the Chair series, Tanya Engesether opens a conversation that most leadership podcasts never have — the specific, confusing, hard-to-name loneliness that lives inside leadership. Not the loneliness of having no one around. The loneliness of being surrounded — and still somehow separate. With her signature blend of personal vulnerability, functional health insight, and faith-rooted perspective, Tanya names what leadership loneliness actually is, why it catches high-achieving women so completely off guard, what it does to the body physiologically, and what she has personally learned to do when it hits. Including a visit to one of the most underused stories in leadership content — the prophet Elijah under the juniper tree — and what God's response to his complete depletion reveals about how we are meant to be met in our hardest moments. If you have ever sat in a full room and felt completely alone — this episode was made for you. In This Episode You'll Learn: What makes leadership loneliness different from ordinary loneliness The four specific characteristics of leadership isolation that most leaders never have language for Why the authority of leadership changes relationships in ways that create genuine distance Why leadership loneliness catches high-capacity women especially off guard The story of Elijah in 1 Kings 19 — and what God's response to his depletion reveals The clinical picture — what chronic loneliness does to the HPA axis, cortisol, inflammation, immune function, and sleep Why tending to leadership loneliness is not weakness — it is healthcare Tanya's personal strategies for navigating the loneliness of leadership — specific, practical, and honest Why peer relationships are the most clinically and experientially important investment a leader can make What specific prayer looks like versus general prayer — and why it matters Scripture Referenced 1 Kings 19:4–18 — Elijah under the juniper tree 1 Kings 19:7 — "Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you." 1 Kings 19:18 — "I reserve seven thousand in Israel." Key Takeaway The loneliness of leadership is not evidence that you are doing it wrong. It is evidence that you are carrying something real — something that deserves to be tended rather than pushed through. The God who met a depleted, lonely prophet under a tree is the same God who is with you in the weight of the chair. This Is Episode 1 of The Weight of the Chair Series I hope this episode blesses you! Xoxo, Tanya Episode Resources: Episode Catalog My trusted Supplement Dispensary: Aligned Vitality Fullscript Dispensary My trusted Telehealth Peptide Provider: EllieMD_Tanya Engesether *I do get a small commission when you use one of the above affiliate links. 3 Ways To Connect With Me: 1️⃣COACHING: Are you READY to Lead Well, Live Well and BE Well? Book a FREE discovery call with me to find out more about functional health or Christian life coaching. It’s the accountability and guidance you need to reclaim your health and happiness! ➡︎ https://alignedvitalityhealth.com/coaching 2️⃣ FACEBOOK: Become part of our Supportive Facebook Group. Connect, share, and learn with others navigating life and leadership ➡︎ https://alignedvitalityhealth.com/community 3️⃣ CONTACT: Leave me a question or comment ➡︎ https://alignedvitalityhealth.com/contact "Yes! Finally, a podcast helping others become the thriving leaders they’re meant to be outside of hustle-culture! This is an amazing resource! Thank you so much for sharing and helping us become Spirit-driven, peaceful leaders!" If you can relate, please consider rating and reviewing my show! It helps me reach more people – just like you – to help them change their future. Don’t forget to follow the show so you don’t miss any episodes! And, if you’re feeling really generous, I’d be SO honored if you would share this podcast with someone. Click here to view our privacy policy. Reminder: The information you hear on this show is not meant to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent disease. It is for educational purposes only. Always consult with your own health practitioner before you make any changes to your health.




